Geographly test i have careless mistake that make me throw 4marks.
After school, almost burst out crying. I knew that it is so silly to cry becus of losing 4marks+...
But it mean alot to me. Yesterday not feeling well and still force myself to study. Today,early in the morning study and study untill 11:30am. and i lose 4marks for not writing the answer out since i already know.
I blame myself onto it that why i cried. My aiming was high and i really hope i can make it. It is so easily to get 25marks but i fail to do it. but someone tell me "mistakes is just a key to success." I learn it and i told myself next time must work harder lerh.
When u see me crying outside the school, u scolded me. I know u care about me but i am just wanted to cry..afterthat,you become very stress and hurt to see me cry. Nah,i sorry. 我不是故意的。
Understand me kay? =[
Then when I and kelly conversation ended, i told u to accompany me home but you said you can't. I understand. But when you walking back to school,you turn around and show me a faking smile that you are not supposed to. You blame yourself for don't know how to make me happy. But..when i stop crying,i will be fine lerh. You are not supposed to shag u know? Then u at facebook statue : "what am I to you? "
You are my everything but maybe u just thinking that you are just my part of thing?
seriously,i can't read your mind.
Afterthat,i walked back home with kelly. Then i try to text you. Do you know that from 2pm I waiting for yourtexts untill 5.30pm ? Last,you finally reply.
More worst then,your reply are so cold to me. I don't know what had happened but just make me feel like crying any of the time. While i waiting for your text,i am texting christine too. Do you know i did not meet them at waterfront and not going waterfront either? =) cos I wanted to ask you if you want to go waterfront mah...At 3:15pm,I had preparing all the things i needed to bring and even change clothes lerh,the main thing is to hope you will release earlier. Little did i know,you 5.30pm released lerh. But that time my parents confirm won't allow me to go waterfront lerh. (I felt so sorry cuz it so bad to pangseh friends.)However,my sister just came back from CCA and she intend to go waterfront with her friends to celebrate birthday with her too. So i thinking if i can use this chance to ask you go waterfront with me. If this time u go waterfront with me,maybe it is the 4th or 5th date right? Then i decided to ask if i can meet you cos i really miss you so much and wanted to hug you from your back. I love you..
But you said that you want to go home lerh so i let you go home...afterthat i ask you the second time,want to go waterfront with me at night? You said that you not feeling well and don't feel like going. Then nevermined. But your texts are so cold towards me. Damn cold. *heartcryingsorrowfully*
Actually i wanted to ask you to go waterfront with me cuz i intend to ask if you can ride bicycle to waterfront,ask you to guide me along . (nomoneywaste^^)
But..you late released 4pm untill 5.30pm then this plan fail..
2nd planned also failed.
3rd planned also failed.
In the end,i stay at home whole days. waiting,waiting&waiting. Tadah,nothing came out.
I dk why u become liddat or what. But i just afraid you hide something from me and don't want to say out.
Maybe i shouldn't think so much and 随你吧~
6.06pm
Afternoond,evening.
Friday.